Tuesday, June 28, 2005

I Know Who I Like And I Wanna Be With.

This is very uncomfortable things to me happen right now, and I am so sad whenever I move to North Carolina. Because finially I find out who I like and wanna be with a person. However, I think I will not say anything to anyone, and I don't think the person will know about that. This is very wonderful thing to me, but I can not think about it right now... Because I know what's going on anytime, and I know I am so much think about it. Whoever knows about this I don't think no one can guess who I like or who I love. I wish I could say to infront of any people who I wanna tell and who I can tell. However, I can not say to the person and cannnot tell anyone ahahaha (T=T)
If the person who I love or wanna be with, I will be very very happy and talk to the person anytime! However, I don't think anyone like to talk to me anytime. because I am so stupid person whenever I cannot stop talking with anyone. ahaha that's bad... Sorry everyone!(>_<) Anyway, I will be in Macomb IL until August 6th or 7th hopefully, but I am not sure yet about that. ALSO, that is depended on my friends decision of an apartment.

Oh, yeah! I am thinking to come back at WIU on Octorber 15th through 18th. I wanna see all of my friends at WIU, but most of my friends have classes those days! That's not fun any at all if they are busy..... Hopefully, I will hung out with everyone!

Tuesday, June 21, 2005


I had a great morning, however, I had bad afternoon. I went to three classes today, and I found out HISTRY class is not my class. I know I am weak for studying histry but I am trying to study hard for that class. I hope I will get a B for HISTRY class, and other two classes are hopefully get an A for my grade... However, I am not that much smart enough... I wish I am good at HISTRY learning..

However, when I was high school student that time I got grade for histry F F F F F!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So I am worried about it now... you know how much I am worried about it. If I get a F, it will be so much bad, and I will hate myself more and more. But I guess I just need to study that class more than I need and I can study other classes less than I thought.

In any case, I need to study for my classes hard enough, and I wanna be get an A for all of classes if I can!

I know it is so hard, and I am still learning in English. Hopefully, I will be ok and not die this summer! This summer is so hard, but I am staying in Macomb until July 28th or 29th.... After that day, I will be in NC and hope i will get a great college life!

I am so exsited about moving to NC, and go to ECU, not WIU in this fall 2005! I think it is good time to change my life and I will be good after I move to NC and go to ECU. Because I had presentiment and expectation from one of my dream and I think it will be better and hopefully it is good time to decided about that!

So what do you guys do in the summer and next Fall?

I am getting so much fun and great changes in my life, and I am going to be fine anyway!

Have a good dream!

Sunday, June 19, 2005

Great Night and Worst Night

I had a great night with my friends who is living in America long time, and I had a worst night with my friends who came from Japan. I was little bit not good anytime whenever I talk or spend with Japanese people, and I had bad time with them a lot.

However, during summer, most of WIU students know not many American students are in town, and my American friends are not here anyway. Also, I try to spend time with Japanese people now and for summer. That was not good idea, and it was huge mistake and choice for me. Because most of Japanese people dislike me now, and I just want to they know me more and more. Also, I want to they know understand me what my character is.

AnYwAy, who know me most. I don't think no one does that. So now on, I decided to not talk to any Japanese people, and I should not be they know me. Because they don't like me, and I knew that. Why should I let they know me and change their mind? I can not change their mind easily, you know, and everyone knows how it works. It is so complecated, and I think that is most difficlut thing to do anytime and anywhere.

How many people know how relationship is important to me? I don't think not many people know that, and I hope my best friend and my good friends know that. However, whom I love and whom I like who knows, and why I don't know that! I know who I love and who I wanna be with. Also, I know how much I love that person or how many time I thought that. Ahahaha.... I know what I wanna be with my friends and what I need to get relationship with my friends. However, anytime I made friends, but they think I am just stupid person ever in the world (who came from or live in Japan). Anyway, I am not ganna be in the group a lot of time, and I hate being in the group also. That makes me making friends harder? I don't think it is not making me any hard to make friends.

However, who hate me and who don't wanna be my friend but just a seeming friends make me to get friends harder or harder than I thought. Because they like to talk about me vey very very badly! That makes me so sad! You know and you can tell that.

Anyway, I am so tired this morning. I am goin to off to bed soon!

It's 4am morning in Sunday! I hope I will get up at 7am or 8am and doing some reaserch for my second speech!

In any case, I hope my friends and I will have a wonderful Sunday!

Saturday, June 18, 2005

One Day I Thought and I Am Thinking

It's Saturday, but I am bored as hell right now....
However, I live with that anyway.
I am going to be get a good time with my friends in the night, but it means nothing to me.

Anyway, I am wishing to have fun with my best friend and my good friends, and wish to be they are here... I miss them a lot and I want to visit them if I possible to do!

I knew it won't happen to me whenever I stay in Macomb. Also, when I leave here to NC, I will not see them a lot and I miss them more than I do now. I am not good at anything about it. I made my friends in IL, and I love them a lot more. Only my hope is going to visit them anytime if I can. That make me better feeling. Also, anytime I don't feel well enough, I will not think about leaving here next month. I know I am glad to find a school in NC, but I am not happy with leave here and make new life... However, I need to do anyway, that way I can still be with my major.

I like here in Macomb. Macomb is not very fun place to stay in, but it is very good to make a lot of friends. Also, what I want to do in here I can do it, and I am greatful of that.

I miss Western Illinois University, their stuff, professors, friends, and my best friend. My best friend is in Chicago right now, but I wish I could visit him before I leave in IL.........

Never think about I want to see him, and I love to hung out with him anytime. My best friend makes me Laugh and Feeling better anytime when I am not well enough.

I know I will miss my floor people which in Washington Hall 13th and 14th floor people who always talked to me and had fun together. Never ever think and I did not talk to them about I am going to transfer until end of Spring 2005. I was not sure about I will or not, but now I know I will. I hope I will see you all of them and have fun together

Those thoughts are one of my free time and i was thinking about you guys, my friends...

Wednesday, June 1, 2005

I love someone like you!

I am thinking about one person who I want to be my lover. I am not good at all the time about thinking love. However, I will.

Also, I wanna say to my lover. That is "They are the highest couple. They are two ideal people who can improve each other only by being there together. Every couple who envies that. It is possible to become happy."

I think never ever change to my thinking.